mepheiz

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 07:43:24 GMT

I think this will be my last Live Journal post. Very few people bother reading it, and I cant see much reason to continue because its going to degrade into just another pity post. This last post is more for me to clear my head, then for anybody to bother reading. I don't anyones condescending bullshit. I don't want any clueless suggestions and solutions to my problems. I just want to say this is me.

Right now, im feeling pretty horrific. I was feeling ok earlier tonight but the mood has dropped off to the point its almost choking me. It hurts, it really hurts bad. It occurred to me earlier I need to prepare myself to be alone for the rest of my life. I will say this. Being alone has left me with his empty feeling that certainly I could do with out, but I will take it over the despair I am feeling right now. I cant point to one specific problem as the cause this time, but I have some ideas that are probably damn close to the right answer. I set off warning bells to too many people that in return want nothing to do with me. And I'm not a beautiful person, rich, witty, smooth, or funny. Any one of those traits would have probably saved me from the reality I am looking at. But I am not any of them. I am already 28 years old, and nothing is working. Why cant I ever win? Its one of the aforementioned reasons. I am not equipped to survive in this world as we know it. To make matters worse, Im startling to develop a serious resentment to the entire Human race. I don't like us. I knew I had some problems, and I sorta figured they were minor psychological issues. But now I am thinking it may be a lot deeper and a lot worse then I thought it was. I dunno. I am tired, I feel ill, I've had to much alcohol tonight and I dislike myself a great deal. Wonderful way to end the night. I am tired. Very tired.

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 05:48:31 GMT

If the Final Fantasy movie, had been Advent Children all would have been right in the world. Lil thin on character development but now I gotta wish something as kool as AC will be created.

Also it looks like I'm gonna have to buy a motorcycle, cause there is going to be some customizing in my future called Fenris.

OI

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 03:40:56 GMT

Im feeling sorta ill right now with this whole waiting thing. Well she call? She wont call? Did I misread something? Is it just the way it is? Have I doomed myself? Her godamn smile wont get outta my head. I don't know if this is a good idea. But could I stop myself if it wasn't?. These conflictions are not helping. What if the call doesnt come. Where am I. Nothing has changed maybe.

Hrm, Oh as if you ahdnt already known, Ryans comic that i am drawign is finally startign to be put up : http://www.courierbold.net/index.php?Strip=1

Chaos Armada

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 07:51:48 GMT

I gotta start getting off my lazy ass and start posting pics and links. The crew went for a 30 + mile bike ride yesterday, was pretty fun. I need to get some lighting equipment for my bike. Fucking frat boys abd their sorority chicken heads hahahhahahahahahah your all so origional and funny. You make me smile meat puppets. I have my mind set on building a Skullknight costume from Berserk. In case you are wondering here are some pics: http://www.skullknight.net/faq/faqimages/skullknight.jpg http://www.directdk.com/Pics/Statues/skullknight.jpg http://luisangel.animania.free.fr/images/skull.gif http://www.cgfan.com/images/illustrator/04/000327_SkullKnight.jpg http://www.anime-manga.it/public/mkportal/modules/gallery/album/berserk/skull_knight/pics/790.jpg http://muqdad14.jeeran.com/images/foldeer/Berserk/SkullNight.JPG
I am 100% positive I cand do better then this http://www.shibuyawalk.com/gallerie/romics2004-2/photos/trunksromics6.jpg
On to other news, it is really time to sell the Prelude. I won't be buying Dwayne's car until the prelude is sold, so I need to get moving on selling it. Finally, the first phase of the move is almost over, I am almost out of my old house. Now I just need to find a new place to live.

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 07:40:53 GMT

Grim not good, looking down, getting worse, not so hot.

Daddy, whats regret?

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 17:25:09 GMT

Go back to work today. I was going to post some links to cool cosplay pics, but I ran out of desire to do that for the moment. Ive got less then 2 weeks to go in this house. And my prelude is basically takign a nsoe dive. Last night the clutch basically decided it was time to die. Its still working but you can hear/feel/smell the end. If you ad up all the other things I need to fix on it, there is just no way. This situation would not be so bad if the exhaust system on the chevelle was not trying to slowly poison me to death.
I got to get a low mileage used car... Im looking at Honda Civics, Volkswagon Golf's and Corrado's, Ford Focus, Acura Integra, or maybe even some kinda Mazada... If I am missing anything let me know, so I can look. Basically I want a hatchback. And its gotta be stick:P

And your name Sir? Senin, Ero Senin.

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 09:17:55 GMT

Well, LAst minute prep for Otakon. Thanks to my job, I did not get a lot of the cosplay stuff doen that i wanted to. But to late to worry about that now. The gear is better then before. I can honestly say, I am looking forward to Otakon this year. I would have liked to have posted up some pics of what I have done, but my camera just decided to take a dirt nap. I am still waiting to hear from Odin, because that sorta determines how much time I have to work on my costume tommorow, and if I have enough time for a bike ride. I also need to find out where people are meeting on thursday/friday. It sorta amuses me that I am going to an anime con, and I really have no plans to watch any anime. How things have changed. This wig is all messed up, I gotta fix it tommorow. And oh damn, I forgot to buy that lip gloss crap for the red lines on the cheeks. Der der der der. Anyways, off to bed, lot of things to do tommorow, though I'll probably end up in Baltimore.

Otk2K5

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 21:02:11 GMT

I am rebuilding my Jiriya rig. I'll be posting up pics as I go here. These first pics are geta I'm putting together, compared to the old ones. The new getas have not yet been sanded in these pics.
http://crisislab.com/dms/Cosplay/Geta001_m.jpg
http://crisislab.com/dms/Cosplay/Geta002_m.jpg
http://crisislab.com/dms/Cosplay/Geta003_m.jpg
http://crisislab.com/dms/Cosplay/Geta004_m.jpg

Order of magnitude

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 22:46:39 GMT

Not surprisingly I have become very busy in the past month. Losing weight, becoming stronger, and my skills at sketching seem to still be on the rise. It is unfortunate I am very much on he edge of being broke. When I get paid on Friday almost all of that money is already spoken for. The new exhaust system for my Chevelle will have to wait till mid august. The repair work on my prelude has to wait till sometime in September. I'm getting some new components for my road bike, so me and Dwayne can ride rode stuff.
I have been working very hard recently on character design for my own comic book. It amazes me how the slightest changes alter the way a character appears, both in appearance and mood.
If I get to go to Otakon this year I want to get the following: Bubblegum Crisis, Riding Bean, Nadia of the Deep Blue Sea, Plastic Little, Gunsmith Cats, and Gallforce. I suddenly discovered all this old anime again and remembered that a lot of the designs, especially in Bubblegum Crisis are bad ass.
I'm looking froward to drawing some more Courier Bold for Ryan. I have not really discussed it to much but now that hes putting it out I think its ok to do so. I've got several comic ideas i want to work on. The number one is Detroit Mech Squad. DMS is sorta ll the dark stuff that I deal with thrown into a story. Kinda like a release for this bad shit in my brain. And its going to deal with some of the questions that matter to me. But Courier Bold. Thats a whole other story. I see all this potential in it. No need for bloodshed or anger. Where DMS is all about the OMG thats bad ass and brutal factor. Courier Bold could be incredible. The chance to explore different worlds, so the reader looks at it and says, wow thats amazing, beautiful. I want to be there, i want to do that. Sorta like when you were a child and you could look up at the sky and the clouds where the most wonderful mysteries. Floating, changing shape, drifting where ever the winds took them. Sure the ship and space are quiet and alone. But that just serves as contrast to all the places the crew goes. Theres no need for anger and hatred or any of those other emotions that I seem to be perpetually afflicted with.

Star is fading

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 06:47:13 GMT

Ive got off tommorow, and back to the grind. I need to be up in less then 5 hours to go to a doctors appointment. prove I'm not unwell. been pretty lot of activity lately. I've been considerign my plot for DMS, and have decided to change it, so the first chapter is in cronological order. I've decided dramatic effect is better served by holding off on the marauder till later in the chapter. While roughing every thing out, I've modified the first chapters marauder one last time. It has some additional moving components now, and the chestplate has gotten a little bit smaller to make room for it. Interestinly enough, i got rollign again on another power armor project I've been wanting to mess around with. The Dogboy armor. Its looking pretty mean now. and I'm pretty happy with the direction its taken.
The left exhaust pipe fell off of my chevelle today, durign a pretty long trip. that was not fun.

...myspace

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 05:39:45 GMT

Ok. the two Kevins are trying to convince me yet again to get a myspace account. Todays attempt required showing that Joe now has one. And their major selling point is the number of young ladies they have gotten their hooks into :P Sadly, there is no denying that would absolutley be the only reason for me to get a myspace account. And thats enough reason for me not to get one. So of course they show me Joes account and I start clicking on peoples accounts, and within two degrees of kevin bacon I'd found my kinda women :P So like I said, no myspace for Mike.
On to less good news, I started biking 3 weeks ago. A lot. and instead of losing weight I gained weight... My fat ass is up to 231 lbs. Speaking as a person that for a long time was 170-180 lbs, this is very uncool. Very not cool.
Work on DMS is going very slowly because of all these distractions. Does Mirah have any tattoos, besides her scantron and ID numbers... I dunno.
I gotta start rebuidlign a costuem for Otaokon. My Jiriya stuff got wrecked thanks to my roomates dog... Im not going to get into that but to say she has already damaged my guitar.
I can't sleep. They showed me all these videos of cops getting killed during traffic stops at the range the other day. Its the sounds that really get to you.

Don't Fear the Reaper

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 20:37:46 GMT

Hey, anyboyd interested in seeign either Howl's Moving Castle tonight or the Blue Oyster Cult? I'd really liek to do one or the other or even both. I was just napping and had a bizare dream I was stuck in German weirmacht panzer squad, and my MG-42 was running outta ammo. To make matters worse the americans were tryign to kill me with George Reeves in a batman custom. Then we ran him over with a boat, but he cam out as Superman. Finally I had to take him out with a panzershreck. But then the woo-tang came after my squad, and we had to stop all the civlian traffic from moving on the autobahn. Worse yet some cray colonel wnated tot ake the wootang on in close quarter battle. I was like, its suicide man, we gotta fight at range. So most of my batalion got sliced up by and old guy with white robes and a 2 foot long beard. For soem reason all of us germans were duking it out with the Wootang up in Lake Wallenwalpak in Pennsylvania... Finally I took matters into my onw hands and 0wned that old man with my 3lete MG-42 skillz. And now I want to know. When the hell is Day of Defeat comign out damnit. The wait is killing me. I just hope they have the French in this one so I can laugh at their usless surrendering assess.

Chevelle

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 14:33:38 GMT

I bought a 1970 Chevelle about a month ago. Its has a 307 with hydro 350 automatic. The car is spray bottle black, and a green interior. I've added some pretty nice wheels and tires to it, changed the oil, added a trunk lock, but otherwise its the same car. PReviously the bigges cars I drove were camaros/firebirds. I had never wanted a big big car before. And sadly after my initial enthusiasm went, I discovered that I just can't really love this car. It's to big for me. What I really want is a 1974 Aston Martin Vantage, but considerign thats about 50,000 pounds outta my price range I'll have to settle with something else. I mean atleast I know I won't lose money on this car, besides the tag fees. I've had people coming up and offering all kinds of money. Im just not sure what to do. I got a fuel pump coming I'm going to install in the next few days, but beyond that I don't know if I should fix anything else up on it or not.
I guess I shoudl check and see if anybody I know wants it, before I sell it. So if anybody wants it lemme know. However be warned this is not the kidna car you can use for everyday stuff, and itll be a big money pitt.

So liek huzzlebub smaz stuff and funwhatever and not and all

Sat, 28 May 2005 15:46:05 GMT

Ok jsut been awake really logn time. first chapter rough draft written. my god is sucky to long take. Bed soon, but first this important message. Chapter its not makign but is atleast start, lots of changes im thininkng mostly int he dialogue area but maybe it the continituy stuff. i thing i jsut wrote soemthign that is goign to be very challenging to draw cause its goign to requaire a lot mroe human stuff then initialy planned on doign go figure. iw ant it to be all mched out, but mechs barely make up a quarter of story if that even. Whats up, i should jsut draw mechs killign eyach other and kall its a milky strawberry shortcaking icream sweetness. LET ME GO ONNNNNNNNNNNN LIEK A BLSITER IN THE SUN< LET MEEEEE GO ONNNNNIVE NBIG? HANDS I KNOW YER THE ONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE AND THE TROGDOR FLEW DOWN TO THE EERH SAND SMOTE THE APOSTLES and john the baptists said hoplly shit, i thinks its a green one. and The burnination hence went oncheckesddddd. ANd i say onto you dotn DO THINGS BECAUSE YOU WNT TO DO THINGS BEFORE ITD TOo late to do thigns, do things because you ahve freakign clue whats goign on but yoru postive that lisa kudrow and allison hannigan are liek the hottest smart women on earth and geroge lucas is a wankers and THE Aston martin Vanquish is goign to be my burial at see, full sial to the mizzen and strech out that yard iron . Moor sail mr Sam the eagle and i say PIGS IN SPACCCCCCCCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. but if you really must know.. rodents of unsual size, I dotn think they really exist.

I'll stop the world and melt with you.

Thu, 19 May 2005 09:17:34 GMT

A spoiler free review of Star Wars Part Three : Revenge of the Sithinator

Some of my earliest memories involve Star Wars. My X-Wing, Y-Wing, Millennium Falcon, Snow Troopers, Speeder Bikes, Jawas, Snow Speeders, Bobba Fett, Jungle Camo Han, Crimson Guards. Star Wars easily out did my love for GI-Joe, and thats just the toys. The first three movies, very much shaped my future, resulting in Sci-Fi books, movies, role playing games, and probably a rather unhealthy addiction to manga and anime. I have had other influences of course. Robotech, Lord of the Rings, Highlander, Road Warrior, Rifts, Fraggle Rock. None of these came as early as Star Wars. Empire Strikes Back is in my top five favorite movies of all.
So I am willing to give a Star Wars movie a chance. Even if the two previous movies have been... somewhat lacking in good. And certainly Revenge of the Sith has the most potential to be an incredible movie. Now having seen the latest installment of Star Wars, I feel I am prepared to make a review of the movie with out any actual spoilers.
Let me begin with some highlights. The entire experience was justified by the Narnia trailer. Deep warm fuzzy feelings envelop me. Its like Diet Lord of the Rings. Vince Vaugn movies always seem to be worth seeing. There is a live action Macross Plus movie being released later this year. I don't know who has been cast as the idol singer yet.
The movie itself was beyond any words I could use to describe it. I was so overwhelmed at times, I reflexively placed my hands over my eyes and ears. In fact the movie defied many of my expectations. Having viewed the movie it was very clear to me there is no other director/writer like George Lucas.
The positively best part of Star Wars Episode 3: I did not go to California to see it. In fact, I didn't even camp out for it. I made a last minute decision, and ended up standing in line for maybe ...50 minutes. I paid $8.50 for the ticket plus another 12 for soda, nachos and other things that well most likely lead to my heart attack induced death. No airplane tickets, no hotel fees, no expensive restaurants. When the movie was over, I got in my car and drove home. I will sleep in my very own bed tonight.
Other good things you ask? Easy. Most of the people in line, stepped away to smoke their cigarettes. Very courteous of them if you ask me. No one was run over by cars in the parking garage. Two kids battled it out with light sabers for everyones without having to be taken to the emergency room for stitches. Teenagers were only mildly obnoxious. Not a single cell phone went off during the movie. The assistant manager wore a pretty in pink tie. I resisted the urge to get an extra large soda and ultimate nachos.
Even more good things you ask? The Subaru Impreza WRX is probably a better car then the Mitsubishi Lan-EVO. Topgear is very British. The Kurgan is a damn cool villain. Natalie Portman is so hot. But Slave Leia is still the sci-fi girl for me. Oh and by the way. Bobba Fetts not dead. Hes crawling himself outta that sarlac pit, and when he gets out, he's gonna be goddamn pissed. You know why? Cover yourself in vasoline and then run tentacles all over your body. You'd be damn pissed to.
In closing I would like to say... ADRIAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!
ADRIAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!

Brilliant!!!

Fri, 13 May 2005 16:39:44 GMT

Anybody want to lend me $74k? Anybody? Bueller? Bueller?
http://cgi.ebay.com/ebaymotors/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=5358&item=4548854786&rd=1
I have many cars I love in the World. 1970 Olds 442 W-30, 1970-81 Pontiac Trans Am (epecially 79 WS-6), 1969 Mustang Mach 1, 1968 Plymouth Barracuda Notch Back, Nissan Skylines, 1987 Buick Grand Nationals, 1951 Studebaker Starlight Coupe, 1984 Audi Quattro Coupe, 1992 Honda Preludes, 1967 Mercury Cougar XR-7 Eliminator, and especially the 1973 Ford Falcon XB GT (Read Interceptor). I do believe I like this guy more then all the rest, maybe even more then the Falcon.

In the notable car category, that didnt quite make the "love" list: Orange 1969 Dodge Charger, 1968 Chevy Camaro + 1987 IROC, 1996 Toyota Supra, 1970 AMC AMX, 1970 Mercury Cyclone, 1995 + BMW M-3, 1981 Volkswagon Scirocco, 1986 Honda CRX SI, 1986 General Dynamics M1-A2, 1978 Chevy Monza 2+2, 1969 FORD LTD, 1987 Mitsubishi Starion, 1968 Mustang Fastback, 1996 Chevy Impalas, 1995 Mazda RX-7 Twin Turbo.

HAHAH!! You've made a classic blunder! #1, never get invovled in a land war in south east asia, but lesser known is #2, never own one of the following cars: Ford Pinto (KABOOM!), 1980 Ford Fairmont Station Wagon (Needs a carb. Again), Datsun 1900 (Thats not rust, thats an optical illusion), Dodge/Plymouth/Chrysler K car (At the shop, again), Peugeot (Mange Moi peppy), Pontiac Fiero (Why won't it stop?) Volkswagon Disele (It only sat for 3 days, why won't it start), Dodge Neon (Oh look hunny! The neighborhood kids stole the car again:), Chevy Chevette (Hey baby, lets take a ride in my Vette), 1970's Cadillac and Ford Galaxy 500 (were gonna have a race to see who can get to Cuba first).

In the I hate you and your excessively large piece of crap, learn how to drive you asshole are: the Cadillac Escalade, Lincoln Navigator, Hummer H-2, If you find your self on this list, fear not. Im sure your not an asshole. Your the exception. Its all those other guys. I mean that honestly. From the bottom of my heart. I like you. Really. Are you still reading this? I didnt mean to throw the turht in your face. It was an accident. Just ignore this. It'll be ok. Asshole.

That is all, tea will be served at a quarter past one.

Blame! and other things.

Tue, 03 May 2005 09:39:22 GMT

Well, I've done it again. Its 4:25... I am suppose to be awake in two and a half hours to go to clinic appointment. Guess Mike will not be going to bed, due to his inability to wake up after short periods of sleep. I ask myself, why did I not use “because” in the proceeding sentence. Instead I opted for “due.” I wrote because, and erased it. For some reason I recall elementary school teachers being mad anytime because was used in a sentence in the manner it was intended for. Maybe they were tired of it. Three sentences ago, I erased a “then” which had been in front of a “erased.” Why did I do that? If I could answer that question, would I bother asking? Maybe it was rhetorical, maybe I have been awake since some time yesterday.
I have been listening to all kinds of music tonight. Trying to find stuff I would like to mangle with my incredible inability to play guitar. I do believe Tears For Fears, Smashing Pumpkins, and Megadeth are very high on my “to do badly” list. Maybe I'll get around to some Duran Duran or Lost Prophets later.
I mentioned I finished chapter zero.alpha of Courier Bold. Now I am writing stuff for myself, with writing technique eclipsed only by my indescribable knowledge of guitar. So now I must choose. The Benders, about my idiot friends in high school. Or Detroit Mech Squad, about the idiots in my head. I dunno. I like sushi. It makes me all warm inside. Buttery. Mmm fig nuts.
Having finished watching Ladyhawke earlier tonight, I have come to numerous conclusions. I have no idea if they are right, but since I am in charge of this journal, I will assume I am correct, since if it was incorrect it is my fathers fault, who having provided half my genetic code, would be the person most likely to benefit from my incorrectness.
Oh right, conclusions. Let me start off with the bad. My god the music is even worse then the rock and roll soundtrack from Legend. Maybe if Daft Punk had done it instead. Too bad there is not a classical score waiting around for Ladyhawke, like Ridley Scot's baby did... Ok I am not going to spend a lot of time on this aside but:

A. Tom Cruise shoulda been named Link, and Princess Lilly should have been Zelda. (Was it Mia Sara?)
B. Link fill up you hearts, so you can charge your sword with power.
C Gannon not as kool as the Prince of Darkness.
D Dr. Franknfurter also not as kewl as the Prince of Darkness.
E When adventuring, it is always advantageous to have a fairy ass fairy in your party. Or phoenix downs.
F Boromir would have done well to have taken note of the above #E.
G Legend of Zelda still has a rockn'er intro song in all its 8 bit glory then Legend.
H If Jack/Link had gone to the ocean side at King Haggards castle, they could scored beaucoup unicorns.

Some of the fighting in Ladyhawke was also kinda iffy but, thats about it for complaints. Allow us to move into the positive zone. And of course number one is Michelle Phifer. Do I really even need to say anything else? I do? Fine. Rutger Hauer also damn kool, and very german. IMDB says I am wrong about that and he is dutch. However for the purposes of this argument, the Netherlands is right next to Germany, and since Canada is about 1 armored division and a Jeb Bush away from becoming states 51-54 I will continue on with my essay. I like Claymores. I like them a lot. I think every jurisdiction should have claymores. Big claymores. With big plaid tartans to go with them. How do you make a movie about a Scottish guy, being played by a French guy, while the Scottish guy is playing the Spanish guy, and he's carrying around a katana, while the Russian guy only gets Candy. Horses that trot funny are really kool. Especially when they are black and have furry legs like the Budweiser horses. Knight takes Bishop. I wish I could ride a horse around at Saint Marys. I would actually start going to church again. But only if they give me a claymore too. I would also like to point out that in any movie or tv show, it never pays to be a guard wearing a red shirt. Never.
While I was watching Ladyhawke, I remember reading Kentarou Miura had style Berserk's protagonist Guts, after Rutger Hauer in Ladyhawke. I didn't see it at first. But by the end of the movie it was unmistakable. I will now detail the details as I think they should be detailed. Firstly, they both wear a lot of black. And a really big black cape. Black capes are officially bad ass, and get you bonus points when trying to enter Club Bad ass. Wesley didn't have the cape, but he did wear all black and a mask, and that was enough to make him a bad ass. Both have really big swords. Now yes... the dragon slayer is like 6 feet long a foot wide and 2 inches thick (Ok if any of you guys at skullknight start bitching at me about the “officially accepted measurements of the dragonslayer or Guts correct name, you will get no milk or cookies for Christmas.) But for a human sized sword, Navare's Claymore is goddamn big. Now as to Helmets. Gut's Band of the Hawks helmet is a spitting image of the Helmet Navare is sporting at the end of the movie. They also carry very large crossbows. Now Navare turns into a wolf at night time. Guts is constantly at odds with the “beast” part of his personality, that looks something like a wolf. And his helmet even changed to a wolf shape at one point. And then there is the never apart yet never together problem. True that Navare and Isabeau have it rough with the whole night and day thing. But Caska is there, but here mind is not. So in that sense, Guts only has the shell of the woman he loved, but not the woman.
Now. I want to make a pirate movie. I can not take credit though. This was Dwayne's idea. See there are pirates. And they are sailing the seas in search of Starbucks... with net access. So they can pirate the Internet. IT would BE THE GREATEST MOVIE 3V4R!!!mpd

Icky icky panang

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 22:37:35 GMT

Courier Bold Chpt #0 is finished. Sent it to Ryan yesterday. so now is time for me to work on a new project. I asked Janis, and she thinks The Benders would be a good idea. I think I am going to write down story ideas for THe Benders and Brave/DMS tonight. See what I get. Maybe I'll fix up my site a lil bit :P So I wasd thinking about new names for my site. maybe 6d samurai, streetsamurai, Studio_Chisel, dunno, ill think about it.

Bold is Bold

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 19:15:19 GMT

Er, so the pencil work is all done for Courier Bold... finally. I'm going to go start shading, finishing it with ink today, and speedlines. Maybe even the talk bubbles. I hope it goes well... in any case here is the link to where the roughs are for it. http://crisislab.com/dms/courier.htm I would really appreciate positive and negative feedback, as I am still in the learning phase. The scans are pretty crappy, but that was just to get em up. When everything is done, i think I will be going to Kinkos to get them scanned. Svyeta has offered to help, so I am hopefull that i can finish it all today. I'm not going to get out of control with this stuff since its the prototype. I jsut wish I had a tablet. Oh, heres how my class went the other day: http://crisislab.com/dms/images/Class_Sucks_2.jpg Well I m outta here.

Need you ask.

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 09:01:05 GMT

I should be asleep. I have to see the head doctor in 4 hours. I can't sleep. I've written down a lot of things that are bothering me for my checkup. Sometime this week, I have to write a will. Though I think it'll be more of an apology letter then anything else. I bought a guitar. That kept my mind off things for a few days. But it seems to be wearing off now. These mood changes are happening more frequently now. What a waste everything has become. I'm going to die early. It'll be something dumb and preventable I'm sure. He who was blessed with good health well surley squander it. I am 5'10. I now weight 231 lbs. When I got out of the Academy I weighed 175 lbs at most. that was 6 years ago. Funny what short amount of time can do. If they send me back to work. Im not going. I have my own solution. I wish i coudl sit down and draw stuff, but nothing comes out. Im going to try and sleep now. Get maybe two hours. that would be nice.
End of line.

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 09:19:13 GMT

Its to fucking hard to make a godamn webpage. Fuck all this shit. All i wanted was some stupid bullshit representing how I feel, and a place to post up my shitty pictures. But evidently the assholes who created the fucking web shit, felt very concerned about job security, and made it as effectively retarded as they could. fuck you all, and good night

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 08:49:49 GMT

FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOUUUUUUUUUU. And You, and you, and you to.

HFS RIP

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 14:41:47 GMT

Well, Thats that, WHFS is gone. Now its the radio version of Telemundo. Was quite the shock last night. Turned the radio on, and one of my rock stations was sounding like RFK stadium at a DC United game. No more HFS festival. hell who am I kidding, Im to old for that shit, and havnt gone to one of them in years. But I have good memories of them. I think the first one I went to was in 1991. I guess i was 14 at that point. Well. I guess it dosnt matter anyways. Ive still got 98 Rock and DC101. Of course they are just corporate stations, but then again, so was HFS. There is no alternative rock station and there has not been one for years. The only music I hear is the stuff the mega corporations want me to. Damn them to hell. We live in a barren desolate wasteland. Only its more like a fucking petting zoo.

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 22:23:52 GMT

I dont't have too much to say. Around 30 minutes after midnight on the 31'st I got shot at 40 or 50 times, and ended up shooting. I'm not very proud of my conduct after it happen. I suppose the only way to describe myself is a bastard. I am unsuited for this life.

One last time

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 13:30:16 GMT

Just bought a ton of food for tonight at Adventure. Hopefully people well be there, but who knows. In any case, Its gonna be chill time for me. Wodnering what time to show up at.
Work goes slowly with my Trans Am. I still need a set of cylidner heads before I can begin work on it. And I need to get to a machine shop to determine how much the work is going to cost on it.
The car is origionally silver, but tis got two coats of paint on top of it. When I get it stripped and then painted, the color is gonna be a big issue. I think Nocturne Blue could be kinda cool. That was a pretty typical TA color back in the days of 1979. And of course it needs a big ass screaming chicken.
Thats about it. I gotta cancel CLIII.com today. l8r

Whoa. I wonder how many points this adds up to. http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=514&e=8&u=/ap/20040922/ap_on_fe_st/205_mph_ticket_2